Why?
Why do I like him so?
Why do I care so much?
Why is he so unlike all the others?
Why do I find him on my mind more than I care to admit?
Why do I get butterflies when I know I will be seeing him or talking to him soon?
Why do I feel empty when he is not near?
Why do I feel sad when I am not able to talk to him?
Why do I feel I can tell him anything and not feel as if he is judging me?
Why do I hurry home to talk to him, even if it is just a quick hello?
Why do I believe his complimentary words, but if they were uttered by someone else, I wouldn't?
Why do I feel he will always give an honest answer to all my questions?
Why do I feel at times I can act silly with him and not feel immature?
Why do I feel I can be myself around him?
Why do I feel I don’t have to do anything to impress him?
Why do I always feel completely comfortable with him?
Why do I kiss him for hours and feel that just isn't enough?
Why do I feel I don’t have to argue with him about anything?
Why do I feel I never have to do anything to have his attention?
Why do I feel I can spend hours with him and never tire of his presence?
I am the type of person who enjoys being alone. Don't get me wrong, I like the idea of being with someone. I don’t like being lonely, but I like my space. I don’t like to be hovered over, pawed on, grappled, or watched. I don’t like the feeling of having a shadow 24/7. I don’t like a lot of affection, unless I initiate.
So, why are things different now? I find that with this one certain person, I just can’t get enough. I want to spend all my time with him, holding him, hugging him, kissing him, watching TV with him, talking with him, being silly with him, holding hands with him. We can just sit there in silence and not feel uncomfortable, or we could have a conversation about something that probably has absolutely no importance. I want to know how he is feeling at all times, and I want his opinions. Yes, I find his opinions are important to me, if for no other reason than just to hear how he feels about things. I like the fact that we never argue, even though we may not agree on everything. I like his honesty. I may not agree with him on everything, but I value his honesty, above all else. I am generally a very trusting person (which has caused a lot of hurt before), but I have never trusted as I do now. I like the way he looks at me. He doesn't look down on me or look at me like he wants to rip my clothes off and savage me. When he takes my face in his hands and looks at me...the only word that comes to mind is gentle I just melt
If nothing more ever becomes of this, and we part ways tomorrow, I will be sad, yes, but I will also be taking with me a sense of serenity, happiness, gratitude and joy, knowing I was capable of feeling like this, whatever this may be, just once in my life...